Commencement

This is the week.  I’ve finally made it to the week of my Master’s Commencement ceremony.

I’ve hung up my gown.  I’ve decorated my cap (which I did not do for my undergrad) with the words “Nevertheless, she persisted.”

As I look at it drying as slow as a glitter glue project has EVER dried, I keep thinking to myself, “You’re finished.  You did it and you’re finished.  You persisted and now you’re done.”

But that’s not commencement at all, is it?

To commence is to begin.  In fact, the dictionary defines the word commencement as “a beginning or start.”  For something to start, something has to end.  Endings can be sad, but that is the nature of the Universe and balance.  So at my commencement, I may be ending my academic endeavors and this current chapter of my life, but I am commencing toward so much more.

Every day is a new day to commence.  It is a new day to begin.  It is a new day to let go of old hurts.  It’s a new day to forgive.  It’s a new day to try again.

We all have old hurts and wounds that weigh us down.  They make us bitter if we let them.  Commence letting those things go.

We self-censor ourselves out of fear of what others may think of us.  Commence to embracing who you are fully and surrounding yourselves with those who speak life into you.  I think sometimes more strife comes from people being afraid to be different, or have others be different because there is a safety in sameness.  Commence trying the road less traveled.

For me, I have a lot of hurt and abandonment issues that I’ve carried for far too long.

I have chosen my masters commencement to commence healing an old wound.  I hope he comes to watch me succeed in the face of all that I have endured.

Nevertheless, she persisted.

It is now time for Commencement.

Commencement to a new chapter.  Commencement to new healing.  Commencement to finding forgiveness. Commencement to seeing others as fallible and on their own journey.  Commencement to let go of perfection, for perfection lies in the imperfect moments of our lives that lead us to the beauty of where we are right now in this moment.

You are breathing; in and out.  Hopefully, you are fed.  Things may not be the way you want them to be, but it is a new day, my friend, and I want you to have it all.

Commence.

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